2012... in my head

I've never really done the whole new years resolution stuff. Just haven't bothered. I thought I might this year. And then I read about everyone (other bloggers that I follow) else setting their own goals for 2012 (they are great blog posts don't get me wrong). And then that put me off. Those who know me will know that I don't like doing things just because everyone else does them. It is just not me. However I then felt stupid to not do something I wanted to do just because others are doing it too!
So last night I sat down and really thought about what 2012 means to me- what is floating around in my head. What I want to accomplish and achieve- what I need to deal with. And this is what I came up with;

Thought: For my husband: I would love for nothing more than for my darling husband to reduce his workload. Working six days a week makes for a hectic lifestyle.

Action: Become more organised and efficient around the home so that when my husband gets home there is less work to be done enabling us to spend more time together as a family. A small goal is going to be to iron more often and to wash up a few times a day so that it doesn't build up to create a disaster zone!

Thought: For my toddler: My daughter (who is 25mths) needs speech therapy and this issue had been put aside while I dealt with my infant's issues. And I've been feeling so very guilty!
Action: To commit to paying for and taking her along to each lesson and doing all the necessary follow-up homework.

Thought: For my baby (though I think I'm going to have to stop calling her a baby very soon): She is a beautiful, cheeky little girl but has not been an easy baby. I've endured 5 months of getting up hourly during the night with an unsettled girl, screaming for hours on end both day and night and also dealing with her issues of not eating and losing weight. I am surprised that I am not grey already. Seriously. It has been hard going.

Action: To learn to give her to God. I need to learn to pray for her more often. That's it. She needs my prayer. 

  

Thought: For my blog: I'd like to stick to my original plan... I blog to share, to encourage and to keep myself accountable.

Action: Continue to write with integrity- not giving in to what people want to read but write what is on my heart. Doing this by re-reading my blogs before I post them and if I doubt a post, to ask my husband to read and critique.

Thought: For me: I'd like to take care of the many things that are wrong with my body and mind in order to be in better shape for the next pregnancy (whenever that is).

Action: To make appointments with my Neurologist (numbness in my right leg), Anesthetist (to decide whether I'm allowed to have another epidural), Obstritrician (discuss birthing options if I can't have an epidural), GP (issues...), Physio (Neck pain which also causes blurred vision and dizziness), Surgeon (concerning my gallbladder episodes). As you can see... I need work! I am guilty of cancelling my appointments because something with the children comes up and they come first. I need a plan to actually stick to scheduled appointments!

I want to learn more about gardening, especially about growing fruit and vegetables. I love the way my backyard can make me feel. It makes me feel carefree, safe, happy and relaxed. Even mowing (for me) is therapeutic.And I feel that this may 'help' my anxiety attacks decrease.
I want to work on being kinder. To others. Especially my family. And to me. I will use 2012 to work on lowering expectations for myself... to bring that bar down just a teensy bit.

I'll be interested to see how I go when I revisit this post in 12 months time... I sure hope I can get a few things ticked off in that time.

If you haven't written some goals for 2012 yet, I encourage you to do so. It is amazing how good it feels to get it all down in writing. It just seems more real. And in my case much more accountable!

Happy New Years Everyone xxx